At 8:47 pm Kurt phoned Courtney at the Peninsula Hotel and left a message for her. The hotel log reads "Elizabeth's phone number is 213-###-####". Grant says it doesn't sound like a message from a person who is suicidal , and notes that Courtney never mentioned this call from Kurt to the media.

Earlier that day, Kurt recieved a visit from Joe Mama (Courtney's friend) at Exodus rehab, Joe said, "I was ready to see him look like shit and depressed. He looked fucking great!" He went on to say: "After Kurt left I was on the phone to Courtney all the time. She was really freaked out, so we drove around looking for him at all the places he might have gone. She was really scared from the beginning. I guess she could tell." (Cobain by the editors of Rolling Stone page 83).

If Kurt looked so great surely he would have conveyed this to Courtney. Why then was she so "freaked out, really scared''? Could it be that she now had no control over the situation, Kurt had become a loose cannon and she feared he would proceed with signing his Will? After all, once this was signed Courtney would lose her power. Divorce would follow and Kurt, his fame and fortune would be lost to her. (Frances Barnett)

"I love attention, I love the trappings of it all. To say you hate the trappings, you're an asshole and a liar." (Courtney Love).

Kurt reportedly did hate the trappings of it. He wanted out.